by Naomi on August 17, 2010

in Inspiration

Depression ↔ Distance

DARKENING DAM - Welgevonden Game Reserve, Waterberg, South Africa

‘Pleasure,’ I say, returning the sincerity of his smile along with the document, duly signed. Absolute serenity marks the moment, disturbed only by the screeches of some Loeries outside. Just as he’s happy to feed them daily, so I’m grateful for the opportunity to help our friend. It’s wise to have a will, simple as that. Fit and strong as he is, it won’t be needed for decades, but still it’s good practise.

‘Give my regards to Dave,’ he waves, after we hug goodbye. ‘Sure. See you soon!’ Warm, breezy farewell, like the kiss of summer flowers sharing a field. Knowing that their neighbour will be there come sunrise. Only he isn’t. Not ever. Dear friend, had you any idea of how much we cared? Of the hole you would leave behind? If only our love could have reached across the Distance and dispersed the Darkness. If only we’d known it was there.

Quotes to consider:

“Depression is rage spread thin.” – George Santayana

“Deep, deep depression is the flip side of comedy. Casting agents don’t realize it but in order to be funny you have to have that other side.” – Parker Posey

“That terrible mood of depression of whether it’s any good or not is what is known as The Artist’s Reward.” – Ernest Hemingway

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Amy MacLeod August 17, 2010 at 7:52 am

Oh no, Naomi. What is it that prevents humans from asking for help? Is it because depression is served up with large doses of shame? I’m so sorry.


Naomi August 17, 2010 at 8:25 am

It does seem to be misunderstood, and hardest for men to ask for help. Thank you for your caring, Amy, although this happened a few years ago. Contemplating this photo served as a reminder.


cindy August 17, 2010 at 8:03 am

How dreadfully sad 🙁
Sorry for your loss.


Naomi August 17, 2010 at 8:27 am

Thank you for your thoughtfulness, Cindy. As mentioned to Amy, this is not recent, simply one of those things that are there. I was moved by the photo to add a post about it.


nrhatch August 18, 2010 at 12:23 am

It’s tough when someone we care for ponders “to be or not to be” and decides that “not to be” makes better sense.

We always wonder what we could have done to make a difference. Chances are that, if they thought we could help, they would have asked.

Still . . . it hurts.


Naomi August 18, 2010 at 12:24 pm

You make a good point, Nancy, thank you.


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